Ambitions, Desires, Success, Failures and personal RANT!!!

I am going through something peculiar for me as I have never experienced this sort of spell in my life.

I am going through a phase of unhappiness and sadness, though I wouldn’t say anywhere near depression. Because I am still an observer to all my feelings and emotions with a very strong positive mindset which is fueled by a strong desire and vision for an amazing future which I foresee for myself.

So at one end I am very sure that this is a phase which I am going through and I have all the resources, means, desire, will and energy to change my current scenario and manifest whatever my heart wishes. But very closely on the other end of the same scale I find myself scrambling for the direction, my compass in life.

Hmm..🤔🤔 ….

It is very difficult to write about the struggles you are going through. Oh! By the way if you are struggling to figure out what the hell I am talking about… this is my mid life crisis. And why I am talking about it here coz I can as it is my space, my account and no rules of engagement here.

So where was I? Yes! Mid life crisis. What the heck!.. I been taking a lot of miss steps, bold moves, misadventures which BTW at that moment felt the right thing to do.. by all logic.

I have seen the best of the best times and now this. Something deep ever present in me says “Don’t worry, just observe this phase this time and learn from it”. Trust when I say that I am not at all complaining as I am strictly following a thought that negativity breeds negativity  and so is positivity.

I am being very matured, focussed and resilient even when I am saying that I am feeling lost, directionless like someone who has lost his compass/mojo in life.

From a very young age I always had this thought echoed/ etched deep in my conscious that I am meant for something bigger. Still havent been able to figure out. Though that thought has gradually transformed superficially into something different. I want to become a reckoning force to eradicate any sort of helplessness in this world. I want to become love for unloved, happiness for people in disdain. I feel responsible somehow to take it upon myself to start a revolution among people to metamorphose themself into finer, nobler, gentler, honest, caring & ethical version of themselves. No human on this earth should be in pain, not hungry, not helpless. The idea is not to become charitable. The idea is to raise human consciousness to the levels that every being is empowered & enlightened to that idea that he or she is capable of manifesting and achieving whatever his/her heart desire and he can put his mind to it to move mountains.

Not a messiah, but I am willing to wake up common man to be able to live this beautiful life on his own terms, not defined by slavery of the employment, economy and society.

The purpose of this writing or any writing is to share with the world and find gems from the like minded tribe. Maybe sooner or later I am able to find my compass with the help of someone from similar coherent beings of the community who can guide or nudge me in the right direction…

Fingers crossed!!!

How did we raise our children into so unpleasant and difficult human beings ?

Some people are so toxic that anyone around them keeps wondering how they were raised. What kind of experiences they had while growing up? They must have been product of toxic relationships, toxic environment and troubled parents.

It is a crime against humanity and future generations to groom beautiful innocent children into so unpleasant, difficult to live with human beings. Please do not raise children if you do not have the ability or ELSE nature should take away child bearing abilities from all those toxic individuals.

Mothers please do not pass on victimised feelings and emotions to your children. Fathers please do not pass on your lethargic, umabitious & negative thought process to your children. Do not pass on your depressed attitude of everything gloom n doom in life to your children.


If you do not have ability to look beyond your own emotional drama which infact is your own making ( culprit! Your mind), then  please do something about it.


You are taking away their ability to lead a normal life, flourish, be happy, prosper and fulfill their destiny. We damage beautiful innocent, perfectly capable, brilliant children and stunt their growth forever. They are born with their own unique set of gifts which they are meant to manifest. Children are much more advanced both emotionally and intellectually. This is a gift of nature and human evolution is proof of that.

Please create different kind of schools where people have to be taught how to live life, how to be with others, on why children are born and how to raise them? How to empower your children and nurture them with positivity and essense of life so that they in turn lead a wonderful, fulfilling life and create a better future race.

Think about it! What if we don’t have these negetive tendencies in our world at all – anger, anxiety, depression, hate, stress, prejudices, helplessness, poverty, disdain

This is not at all philosophical. The leaders world over are discussing in different forums on how to eradicate so many issues in the world as a result of these negative human tendencies & emotions. This is the time we all take a step back and rewire our brains to whatever steps/actions needed to make our existence fruitful, engaging & fulfilling.

Having different social status is never an issue in the world. But yes going through same problems of anger, depression, anxiety, stress and deteriorating health across society is definitely an issue.

What are the odds that if we nurture childhood better we won’t have to repair our damaged self esteem, deprived mindsets and a generation of troubled men & women.

Suggest a heading – Trying to structure my thoughts around some interesting topics

Let me start with “I”.

I am a humble human being, someone too polite to say No to people on the face, someone too naïve to become an entrepreneur (at least as per my mentor/well wishers).

I am a common man who is trying to come out of series of setbacks , trying to undo my mistakes, move away from path of mediocrity to resourcefulness, learning resilience on the way, getting perspective on the most important aspects of life. Professionally I have spent 16 years 3 months experiencing nuances of corporate life mostly in Dubai. Last 5 months I have been on a forced sabbatical. I was/am in love with Dubai (or so I thought), but somewhere along the way to becoming 40 I realized that I am more in love with eradicating any sort of helplessness (not only poverty & pain) from this world … to start with my world.

I see a world where a lot of people (youngsters & experienced alike) would need good amount of hand holding due to this turmoil. It could be learning new skills, unlearning old way & beliefs, in need of motivation and inspiration, direction and at times a small nudge. People will have to learn to define their value & skill sets and embed those into specific niche jobs/assignments and finally lay it out to the world. The practice of being engaged into low value task/jobs would be redundant as these tasks are going to be assigned to machines/Programs/AI.

One of my revered mentor & a yogi advised me to look within and try to reinvent myself after identifying my core skills. More & more people are engaged into very generalized job profiles with very least or insignificant skillset. I also thought that what if I also possess a very generalized skill set or am still trying to figure out what is my skill even after spending 1 1/2 decade in Wealth Management industry.

My mentor enlightened. ” You are good in articulating your thoughts. You are good in speaking the right content at the right time and in the language your audience understands and relate to.” Up until now I had been thinking that I am not a good orator as I don’t speak much in gatherings until unless I have something significant to offer/add value to in the discussion. I generally keep my thoughts to myself.

My mentor spoke further. “You need to find places, opportunities (monetary or otherwise) where this ability/niche can be put to use or exploited.”

I explain very well to individuals/group something without any inhibition when I have added my thoughts to a concept/theory/fact in concern. I find myself very effective in awakening people who are still sleeping (metaphorically) and can very well be swatted by the harsh reality of this fast changing world. It comes naturally to me to nudge youngster so that they don’t fall into the pit, so that they do not follow zombie herd. Setbacks and failures have instilled in me some sort of resilience which has somehow blessed me with a discerning mind resulting which I am choosing to engage or not engage in so many areas which would seem very logical for a third person to advise me to.

I am still very cautious as i haven’t established the positive outcomes of my real skills & thoughts. But I do see myself effortlessly preventing a lot of people making similar mistakes following an unyielding path. I need not be a full time coach to do that. Anyone & everyone should keep their eyes & ears open and provide helping hand/support/guidance/training to people in need. We have to inculcate a habit of knowledge/skill/experience sharing among us.

World now needs average humane people with sanity and real heart to repair the human existence..

Fear holds us back to express ourselves fully. Each one of us has an immense potential to be fulfilled. It’s just fear of so many things which keeps us in its grip as a prisoner.

I agree and value this thought that none of us have preordained destiny.Everyone can become the true manifestation of his/her immense potential.

I wish common man could also understand this truth about our existence. Common man is so focussed in making ends meet and engrossed completely into 9-5 slavery. This was not supposed to be the reality of human existence.

There has to be thousands and thousands of people focused on bringing solace into this world. World needs repair not fast paced destruction in the name of economic growth.

We need to remove hypocrisy from our lives completely which we learn right from our childhood. Concern can not be superficial. It has to reflect in everything.

Please CONSUME only that much which is needed for you to have a comfortable life. Be wealthy, create wealth for generations to come, for our nation, But please be mindful in your consumption as it affects every life on planet, whether buying clothes, cars, house, plenty of products we use, even our eating habits, pl be mindful in everything.

World! Run/spin slow, first heal your people and give them strength again to live

Our obsession with EXTRAORDINARY, OUTSTANDING, EXCEPTIONAL, RARE, BEST has brought world to this level of insanity where the common man has been scrambling for a life of just basic resources.

Too much competition is perpetuated in this world. And for what? Ask this to people struggling to survive on this beautiful planet despite so much food and resources.

Greed has taken humans to such shameful levels of indifference, that it doesnt bother if more than half of human population is spending their precious life in bonded labour of scarcity, false hope,  long died ambitions and painful poverty.

Let’s work on making this world right again than rather be concerned with false notion of progress and growth. Very strong words from me just to wake up or influence the real human in each one of us to make the right choice in smallest of things.