Ambitions, Desires, Success, Failures and personal RANT!!!

I am going through something peculiar for me as I have never experienced this sort of spell in my life.

I am going through a phase of unhappiness and sadness, though I wouldn’t say anywhere near depression. Because I am still an observer to all my feelings and emotions with a very strong positive mindset which is fueled by a strong desire and vision for an amazing future which I foresee for myself.

So at one end I am very sure that this is a phase which I am going through and I have all the resources, means, desire, will and energy to change my current scenario and manifest whatever my heart wishes. But very closely on the other end of the same scale I find myself scrambling for the direction, my compass in life.

Hmm..🤔🤔 ….

It is very difficult to write about the struggles you are going through. Oh! By the way if you are struggling to figure out what the hell I am talking about… this is my mid life crisis. And why I am talking about it here coz I can as it is my space, my account and no rules of engagement here.

So where was I? Yes! Mid life crisis. What the heck!.. I been taking a lot of miss steps, bold moves, misadventures which BTW at that moment felt the right thing to do.. by all logic.

I have seen the best of the best times and now this. Something deep ever present in me says “Don’t worry, just observe this phase this time and learn from it”. Trust when I say that I am not at all complaining as I am strictly following a thought that negativity breeds negativity  and so is positivity.

I am being very matured, focussed and resilient even when I am saying that I am feeling lost, directionless like someone who has lost his compass/mojo in life.

From a very young age I always had this thought echoed/ etched deep in my conscious that I am meant for something bigger. Still havent been able to figure out. Though that thought has gradually transformed superficially into something different. I want to become a reckoning force to eradicate any sort of helplessness in this world. I want to become love for unloved, happiness for people in disdain. I feel responsible somehow to take it upon myself to start a revolution among people to metamorphose themself into finer, nobler, gentler, honest, caring & ethical version of themselves. No human on this earth should be in pain, not hungry, not helpless. The idea is not to become charitable. The idea is to raise human consciousness to the levels that every being is empowered & enlightened to that idea that he or she is capable of manifesting and achieving whatever his/her heart desire and he can put his mind to it to move mountains.

Not a messiah, but I am willing to wake up common man to be able to live this beautiful life on his own terms, not defined by slavery of the employment, economy and society.

The purpose of this writing or any writing is to share with the world and find gems from the like minded tribe. Maybe sooner or later I am able to find my compass with the help of someone from similar coherent beings of the community who can guide or nudge me in the right direction…

Fingers crossed!!!

How did we raise our children into so unpleasant and difficult human beings ?

Some people are so toxic that anyone around them keeps wondering how they were raised. What kind of experiences they had while growing up? They must have been product of toxic relationships, toxic environment and troubled parents.

It is a crime against humanity and future generations to groom beautiful innocent children into so unpleasant, difficult to live with human beings. Please do not raise children if you do not have the ability or ELSE nature should take away child bearing abilities from all those toxic individuals.

Mothers please do not pass on victimised feelings and emotions to your children. Fathers please do not pass on your lethargic, umabitious & negative thought process to your children. Do not pass on your depressed attitude of everything gloom n doom in life to your children.


If you do not have ability to look beyond your own emotional drama which infact is your own making ( culprit! Your mind), then  please do something about it.


You are taking away their ability to lead a normal life, flourish, be happy, prosper and fulfill their destiny. We damage beautiful innocent, perfectly capable, brilliant children and stunt their growth forever. They are born with their own unique set of gifts which they are meant to manifest. Children are much more advanced both emotionally and intellectually. This is a gift of nature and human evolution is proof of that.

Please create different kind of schools where people have to be taught how to live life, how to be with others, on why children are born and how to raise them? How to empower your children and nurture them with positivity and essense of life so that they in turn lead a wonderful, fulfilling life and create a better future race.

Think about it! What if we don’t have these negetive tendencies in our world at all – anger, anxiety, depression, hate, stress, prejudices, helplessness, poverty, disdain

This is not at all philosophical. The leaders world over are discussing in different forums on how to eradicate so many issues in the world as a result of these negative human tendencies & emotions. This is the time we all take a step back and rewire our brains to whatever steps/actions needed to make our existence fruitful, engaging & fulfilling.

Having different social status is never an issue in the world. But yes going through same problems of anger, depression, anxiety, stress and deteriorating health across society is definitely an issue.

What are the odds that if we nurture childhood better we won’t have to repair our damaged self esteem, deprived mindsets and a generation of troubled men & women.