Ambitions, Desires, Success, Failures and personal RANT!!!

I am going through something peculiar for me as I have never experienced this sort of spell in my life.

I am going through a phase of unhappiness and sadness, though I wouldn’t say anywhere near depression. Because I am still an observer to all my feelings and emotions with a very strong positive mindset which is fueled by a strong desire and vision for an amazing future which I foresee for myself.

So at one end I am very sure that this is a phase which I am going through and I have all the resources, means, desire, will and energy to change my current scenario and manifest whatever my heart wishes. But very closely on the other end of the same scale I find myself scrambling for the direction, my compass in life.

Hmm..🤔🤔 ….

It is very difficult to write about the struggles you are going through. Oh! By the way if you are struggling to figure out what the hell I am talking about… this is my mid life crisis. And why I am talking about it here coz I can as it is my space, my account and no rules of engagement here.

So where was I? Yes! Mid life crisis. What the heck!.. I been taking a lot of miss steps, bold moves, misadventures which BTW at that moment felt the right thing to do.. by all logic.

I have seen the best of the best times and now this. Something deep ever present in me says “Don’t worry, just observe this phase this time and learn from it”. Trust when I say that I am not at all complaining as I am strictly following a thought that negativity breeds negativity  and so is positivity.

I am being very matured, focussed and resilient even when I am saying that I am feeling lost, directionless like someone who has lost his compass/mojo in life.

From a very young age I always had this thought echoed/ etched deep in my conscious that I am meant for something bigger. Still havent been able to figure out. Though that thought has gradually transformed superficially into something different. I want to become a reckoning force to eradicate any sort of helplessness in this world. I want to become love for unloved, happiness for people in disdain. I feel responsible somehow to take it upon myself to start a revolution among people to metamorphose themself into finer, nobler, gentler, honest, caring & ethical version of themselves. No human on this earth should be in pain, not hungry, not helpless. The idea is not to become charitable. The idea is to raise human consciousness to the levels that every being is empowered & enlightened to that idea that he or she is capable of manifesting and achieving whatever his/her heart desire and he can put his mind to it to move mountains.

Not a messiah, but I am willing to wake up common man to be able to live this beautiful life on his own terms, not defined by slavery of the employment, economy and society.

The purpose of this writing or any writing is to share with the world and find gems from the like minded tribe. Maybe sooner or later I am able to find my compass with the help of someone from similar coherent beings of the community who can guide or nudge me in the right direction…

Fingers crossed!!!

How did we raise our children into so unpleasant and difficult human beings ?

Some people are so toxic that anyone around them keeps wondering how they were raised. What kind of experiences they had while growing up? They must have been product of toxic relationships, toxic environment and troubled parents.

It is a crime against humanity and future generations to groom beautiful innocent children into so unpleasant, difficult to live with human beings. Please do not raise children if you do not have the ability or ELSE nature should take away child bearing abilities from all those toxic individuals.

Mothers please do not pass on victimised feelings and emotions to your children. Fathers please do not pass on your lethargic, umabitious & negative thought process to your children. Do not pass on your depressed attitude of everything gloom n doom in life to your children.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.

If you do not have ability to look beyond your own emotional drama which infact is your own making ( culprit! Your mind), then  please do something about it.

PLEASE DO NOT MAKE A GENERATION OF PEOPLE NEGATIVE & DEPRESSED

You are taking away their ability to lead a normal life, flourish, be happy, prosper and fulfill their destiny. We damage beautiful innocent, perfectly capable, brilliant children and stunt their growth forever. They are born with their own unique set of gifts which they are meant to manifest. Children are much more advanced both emotionally and intellectually. This is a gift of nature and human evolution is proof of that.

Please create different kind of schools where people have to be taught how to live life, how to be with others, on why children are born and how to raise them? How to empower your children and nurture them with positivity and essense of life so that they in turn lead a wonderful, fulfilling life and create a better future race.

Think about it! What if we don’t have these negetive tendencies in our world at all – anger, anxiety, depression, hate, stress, prejudices, helplessness, poverty, disdain

This is not at all philosophical. The leaders world over are discussing in different forums on how to eradicate so many issues in the world as a result of these negative human tendencies & emotions. This is the time we all take a step back and rewire our brains to whatever steps/actions needed to make our existence fruitful, engaging & fulfilling.

Having different social status is never an issue in the world. But yes going through same problems of anger, depression, anxiety, stress and deteriorating health across society is definitely an issue.

What are the odds that if we nurture childhood better we won’t have to repair our damaged self esteem, deprived mindsets and a generation of troubled men & women.

Motivation / Endorsements AND Life coaches/Motivation speakers.

hare what you feel might help others. Adopt “VERIFY FIRST”, when it comes to any celebrity/influencer ENDORSEMENTS, economic pundits/economists/policy think-tanks/Analysts/specialists/Subject Matter Experts/BESTSELLING Authors VIEWPOINTS & OPINIONS.

You can look for inspiration and motivation in a every common man, in life around you.

Do not think much. Act! Negative thinking keeps you in a prison created by mind. It robs you of your true potential. It brings Fear. Fear of future, fear of unknow, fear of missing out/getting left behind everyone. Its all drama created by your mind. Its not real, just like your emotions. Emotions are highly overrated. We dwell too much on them, indulge too much in them. Real life is outside your mind & thoughts

You don’t need a life coach or a motivational speaker to tell you how to live life.

My Journal which I thought I might never publish.

Kapil Bhatnagar

Posted on Medium.com , Feb 17, 2019 · 1 min read

Random Thoughts !


There are lot of distractions and we have limited time in a day.

Learn to limit distractions. Don’t look at unnecessary messages, news bits, videos. Be very focused. Spend your time (energy) on what is taking you towards fulfillment of your true potential.

Focus on what makes you happy, what you aspire, what you dream and desire. And then be at it. Enjoy, relax, have fun but always stay focused.

Most important….

Stay silent… stay with yourself for at least 5 minutes everyday. It could be even while taking a break from work during office hours. Try not to smoke. You will feel the difference. Not smoking and drinking less keeps you active, alert and you will feel more energetic.


Somehow try to get into the best of the best places in your industry or in your interest domain and look for help from anyone, known unknown both.

It is painful to see yourself reach much lower than your true potential at a later stage in life. See that you don’t have many regrets at least on those lines.

Money is not everything but slightly less than everything.

Work on your desires because they are among few things in life that bring fire and purpose in you.

Desire for anything and everything… money, fame, luxury, comfort, safety, security, adventure, travel, opulence, social help and so on…


Forget what the norms, school, culture, parents, elders taught and imbibe in us. Know that you change everyday, every moment. So do not hold on to anything. Majority of beliefs are prison created by your mind.

You won’t get any knowledge from this post. This is my humble attempt at reaching out to like-minded people.

It is very difficult to figure out how to ask for help. So learn this art at a very early age. It will help you quite a lot all along your journey.

I have learnt this fact from the struggles i had that one should always keep on helping people in need and reduce any sort of friction in their professional or personal life.

What is the difference between showing you a mirror and casting doubt on your ability? Ask this to people who are a negative influence in your life, who try to belittle you and are never an enabler in your growth. Spend less time with them if possible. Eliminate negative energies around you.


Silver lining in dark clouds